In our overly busy, hyper-connected world, the idea of “alone time” holds a powerful appeal. Solitude and silence are seen as things that create space for relaxation and self-awareness—things to be sought out and savored.
But in the ten years since we started Solitary Watch, we’ve learned about another kind of “alone” that, when you even try to imagine it, shakes you to the core. It’s a state of being that tens of thousands of Americans experience every day—not by choice, but by force. It may last a few weeks, several years, or a lifetime. And there is nothing else like it. Because when you’re in solitary confinement, you are, really and truly, alone.
One person who wrote to us from his cell described life in solitary confinement as “a soul-crushing loneliness that never ends.” Another called it “a destroyer of humanity.” Solitary is a level of isolation so unnatural to human beings that in just a few weeks, it begins to change the structure and chemistry of the brain—and so painful that, as suicide rates in solitary confinement show, some people would rather die than continue to endure it.
In the past decade, Solitary Watch has become a beacon that thousands of men and women in solitary confinement have reached out to—because they know we’ll always reach back. Our series Voices from Solitary is a commitment to telling stories about solitary, written by people in solitary. We share just a few of them with you below.
Against the worst odds, these stories have made their way to us and out into the world, becoming unlikely sources of inspiration—messages from people locked in concrete closets, stripped of the basic tenets of humanity, who are somehow able to maintain their grasp on beauty and kindness, strength and grace. That they exist at all feels like a minor miracle. Some writers in solitary have told us that just knowing people on the outside are reading their words makes them feel a little less alone.
Our ability to connect with these people and continue sharing their stories depends entirely on the support of our readers. If you believe this work is important, we hope you will consider making a gift to Solitary Watch this year. Through December 31st, every donation you make will be doubled, up to up to $1,000 each, through the NewsMatch program, funded by the Democracy Fund, Knight Foundation, and MacArthur Foundation, among others.
As you read these stories, share them if you’re inspired, and please donate whatever you can to help us continue this work. Because there are still far too many stories out there from far too many people who know what it means to be really, truly alone.
In “Thin Comfort,” Joseph Stanwick, who spent half his life in solitary confinement, recalls a holiday season on lockdown when the unexpected gift of jam sandwiches connected him to another incarcerated man that he had never met.
In “A Mouse and a Murderer,” William Blake, who has been in solitary for 35 years, relates the story of the being who briefly shared his cell.
In “Loneliness Is a Destroyer of Humanity,” Jesse Wilson, held at the notorious federal supermax prison ADX Florence, tells how a narrow slit of window saves him from complete despair.